LOVE

 

Love hurts

Yet it feels good to love.

 It feels good to be loved.

But why am I so afraid of love?

Why am I afraid to let other people love me?

When, someone tells me that they love me.

I run and hide.

 I think I will be safe staying away from love.

But the truth is.

I can’t hide from love.

It will find me no matter what.

Sometimes I give in to love.

I trust the people around me.

They tell me they love me, but they always leave me.

Leave me broken, and feeling unloved.

I used to put up walls to block myself from love.

But those walls were never good enough.

They were never big or thick enough, to hold love back.

Love always, broke them down.

It always came unvented.

It tore me.

It broke me.

It destroyed me.

It left me.

I fought back trying to stop the pain.

But I was never strong enough.

Love took the fight out of me,

The first few time it came around.

I used to trust love.

But now I don’t.

I don’t know if I ever will again.

Because I don’t, want to be hurt.

I don’t want to be fixing myself,

After every time it leaves.

So next time it comes, I hope that it will stay forever.

But if it’s not forever, I don’t want it at all.