More qoutes

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

-Reinhold Niebuhr

A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.

-Oscar Wilde 

Do all you can to make your dreams come true.

-Joel Osteen

I made decisions that I regret, and I took them as learning experiences... I'm human, not perfect, like anybody else.

-Queen Latifah 

Life is the art of drawing without an eraser.

-John W. Gardner

You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.

-C. S. Lewis

We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.

-Eleanor Roosevelt

 

 

 

 

Fear

I sit here and my mind is blank…

What am I afraid off?

I guess

I am afraid of loss.

Pain

Broken people

I’m afraid of myself.

I’m afraid of change.

I’m afraid of spiders.

I’m afraid of snakes

I’m afraid of the unknown

I’m afraid of death

These are the things that I am afraid of. It’s not all of them, but I don’t have that much time to share all of the things I am afraid of. Maybe someday i will, but that’s enough for today.

 

Procrastination

I would have started this earlier but......


I will finish this later.

 

 

 

Brick Wall

 

Indestructible

Protective

Tall

These are the words to describe the brick wall.

The same brick wall that I build around my heart to protect myself from pain.

I don’t like to feel pain.

I hate crying.

So I keep this wall, the wall that keeps harsh words away from me.

That keeps my heart from getting stomped on.

From being shattered to pieces.

From being ripped and destroyed.

I don’t let people come close to me.

This wall helps to keep them away.

Only if you prove to me that you will not hurt me.

Then maybe I will let you in.

I know that this sounds harsh.

But I’ve learned you can’t really trust anyone these days.

They all portend to love you, so they can get close to you.

Then when they are close enough they break you and leave you.

No it’s not like I think that everyone will hurt me.

Is that I want to be ready for when it will happen.

Maybe there will come a day where I will break this wall down.

Where, I start trusting people again.

But it’s not today.

I don’t think it’s going to be any time soon.

Hey There!

 

Hey there!

I know that you will never get this, but I wanted to tell you how much I love you, and miss you!

Why did you have to go?

You were my older brother, you were my best friend.

To tell you the truth I wish that was me who died.

 How could just leave me?

Sometimes I am mad at you for leaving me.

 I mad at you, because you are not here to help me.

I am mad at you, for putting so much weight on my shoulders.

 I have days where I wish I was up there with you.

You left me, and I guess you expected me to stay strong, to make sure that the rest of them are okay.

Well they’re not really okay.  

You know the little sister that you left.

The one, that cries every night.

 The one, that wishes that she knew you better.

Well she misses you so much, that sometimes she doesn’t know what to do with herself.

You know the brother you left; well he just lost his first baby.

The one that won’t tell me how he is feeling, but I know that he is slowly dying inside.

I don’t know how to help him, that’s why I need you here.

I am trying to be strong for all of them, but I am not you.

You always knew how to help. 

Sometimes it doesn’t seem real. I have to stop and remind myself that you are gone.

I have to remind myself, that it’s not all just some crazy dream.

I always thought that we still had a lot of time together, oh how wrong I was.

I wish that I had called you one last time, and told you how much I loved you.

Maybe someday I will see you again.

Maybe I will be able to tell you, how it felt to lose you.

For now I just want to tell you that I love you and that I miss you.

 I will try my best to stay strong, and help in the best way possible.

I hope that if you are looking down on me that you are proud.

Well I will see you later.

Love you!

 

LOVE

 

Love hurts

Yet it feels good to love.

 It feels good to be loved.

But why am I so afraid of love?

Why am I afraid to let other people love me?

When, someone tells me that they love me.

I run and hide.

 I think I will be safe staying away from love.

But the truth is.

I can’t hide from love.

It will find me no matter what.

Sometimes I give in to love.

I trust the people around me.

They tell me they love me, but they always leave me.

Leave me broken, and feeling unloved.

I used to put up walls to block myself from love.

But those walls were never good enough.

They were never big or thick enough, to hold love back.

Love always, broke them down.

It always came unvented.

It tore me.

It broke me.

It destroyed me.

It left me.

I fought back trying to stop the pain.

But I was never strong enough.

Love took the fight out of me,

The first few time it came around.

I used to trust love.

But now I don’t.

I don’t know if I ever will again.

Because I don’t, want to be hurt.

I don’t want to be fixing myself,

After every time it leaves.

So next time it comes, I hope that it will stay forever.

But if it’s not forever, I don’t want it at all.



 

My Favorite Quotes

Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability, but comes through continuous struggle. And so we must straighten our backs and work for our freedom. A man can't ride you unless your back is bent.

Martin Luther King, Jr.

If you don't design your own life plan, chances are you'll fall into someone else's plan. And guess what they have planned for you? Not much.

Jim Rohn  

 

Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.

Thomas A. Edison

 

A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others.

Ayn Rand

 

Some say the blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice, I say the darker the flesh and the deeper the roots...

Tupac Shakur

 

Never trust anyone who wants what you've got. Friend or no, envy is an overwhelming emotion.

Eubie Blake

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.

Helen Keller

 

 

These are only some of the quotes I like. Maybe some day I will share some more.

Crayons

Every child is an artist.  The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.  ~Pablo Picasso

Sometimes I want to turn back the clock, and go back where my life was care free.

Where I didn't have to worry about anything.

Where the only pain I felt was the one that I caused myself, because of doing something stupid.

Where the only thing I worried about is being in the moment, and having fun.

 Where, I was friends with everyone and everything.

Where, I could come up with amazing things using only my imagination.

Where, I didn’t care about being the best, I want to go back to enjoying my life.

I want to go back to the time where I loved life.

I want to go back to the time, and use crayons to draw anything I want, trees, houses, and other pointless things.

I want to go back to not caring about how I look, not caring about everything being perfect.

I just want to go back in time, and tell myself that being a grown up isn’t as fun as it looks like.

I want to tell myself to not hurry, and enjoy being a child.

I will tell myself that when you grow up, you start to worry about pointless things.

That when, you grow up you start having bad days.

It’s not that I heat being a grown up, is that I just want to enjoy being a child for just a little bit longer.

So to every child out there, don’t you dare say that you want to be a grown up. Because soon it will all end, and the only thing you will be left with is regret and wishing that you could turn back the clock. Like I am wishing now, but wishes don’t always come true.

Maybe we should develop a Crayola bomb as our next secret weapon.  A happiness weapon.  A beauty bomb.  And every time a crisis developed, we would launch one.  It would explode high in the air - explode softly - and send thousands, millions, of little parachutes into the air.  Floating down to earth - boxes of Crayola's.  And we wouldn't go cheap, either - not little boxes of eight.  Boxes of sixty-four, with the sharpener built right in.  With silver and gold and copper, magenta and peach and lime, amber and umber and all the rest.  And people would smile and get a little funny look on their faces and cover the world with imagination.  ~Robert Fulghum

I'm here

I'm here

 

What does it really mean to be sad, depressed or broken?

I don't really know myself, all I know is that when you feel like giving up, stay strong! Your life is something, something that is so beautiful. You are here!!! You are breathing, you can choose, to make your life happy or sad. That is all up to you, robots cant make that choice for themselves, but we can. They can't think like us, they can't feel like us, they can't love like we do. I am not a robot, I CAN feel sad, cry, feel pain, and most of all I can receive love and I can give love. That's what makes you human, is being able to FEEL!  it doesn't mean that every time we feel something, it will always be positive. Maybe you feel like quitting, like giving up on things, because it seem like the easiest way. I know that I do that, when something becomes unbearable for me I feel like giving up. I think that there is no point in moving forward, that at the end it will all just crash and burn. 

 

 There is always someone out there to tell me, that I can do it and that if is stick with it will be worth it. They know this because they went through something like this, you are not the only one going through heard times.  We are all human, we understand that sometimes you need the help, you need some one to lean on. We care about each other, and that is something that robots cant do, they will  never be able to care for you.

We are not robots we are human, dot be afraid to admit that!!!