Real Talk

I cant think of anything right now! My mined is blank hopefully I will have something by tomorrow.

Paris

Dear Paris.

The first time I meat you I was so afraid. Afraid to, get close to you.

I was afraid of losing a part of myself to you.

 I was afraid because I knew that we weren’t going to be together for a long time.   

You were something different, and I was afraid of difference at that time.  

But the first day we spent together, it was something beautiful.

You saw something in me, and you wanted me to share it with the world.

I fell in love with you, and all of your secrets.

You weren’t, perfect but I wasn’t looking for perfection.

 I was just looking for someone who would accept me for who I was.  

And that’s exactly what you did, you made feel comfortable.

You made me open up, and share my imperfections.

I didn’t want to see that our time was coming to the end, but it’s almost over.

And I’m going to miss you, but it’s time to move on.

I just hope that you can make someone feel, beautiful, perfect and secure.

                                                                                                                Sincerely

                                                                                                                Charles in Charge

I still remember

        I remember when I was a kid and I used to play in the snow, I used to love it but now it just seems cold and sad.
        I remember my first kiss when I was seven, with this kid that I had a crush on. He asked me not to tell anyone, but then ran out and told everyone himself.
        I remember when I got grounded from my phone for two years.  I remember how mad I was at my parents that day.
        I remember my first trip to Disney land, and how I thought it was the most magical place in the world.
        I remember when I used to love watching Spongebob, and how it was my favorite show.
        I remember the first time I told someone I loved them, and it wasn't my parents.
         I remember when I used to sit on the window seal at night and look up at the full moon, and it always felt like it was watching me back.
         I remember promising my sister that I will always be there for her, and I still keep that promise.
         I remember the fist day I found out that my older brother was injured because of an accident, and them telling me he was going to die.
         I remember my first best friend, and how now we don't even talk.
          I remember......

        If I didn't remember things I would be lost today. This are the memories than keep reminding me that life can be sad, but it can also be happy.
       

Enough with the all the sadness it's time for laughter!

We all feel lonely sometimes!

Mad World By: Gary Jules

All around me are familiar faces

Worn out places, worn out faces

Bright and early for the daily races

Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses

No expression, no expression

Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow

No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny

I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you,

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles its a very, very

Mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good

Happy birthday, happy birthday

And I feel the way that every child should

Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous

No one knew me, no one knew me

Hello teacher tell me, what's my lesson?

Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny

I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you,

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles its a very, very

Mad world, mad world, enlarge your world

Mad world.

I love this song, and I wanted to share it with all of you. I hope you like it.

Steps on how to let things go

1.                Don’t be afraid to move on.

2.   Realize that you are holding on to tight.

3.        Realize that they have changed.

4. You have to believe that when you let go   that everything will be easier.

5.     Believe that the pain will go away some day.

6.    Learn how to forgive and forget.

7.   Don’t hate him/her

8. Let go of the pain that they have caused you.

9.  Keep your head up high.

10.         Learn how to be happy aging.

 

Once you have taken these steps and learned to let go you never know what might come your way.

We all struggle

Broken

Broken bones had been beaten, touched left intact.

Different

What holds me back the most, are my own mistakes, my own shadows.! 

This is something different.
The one with words inside represents me. 
The ones that look dark, are my own shadow and mistakes that hold on to me. 
They don't let me go, they stick around to remind me of everything horrible that I did.
They tear me apart, but the thing that puts me back together is hope that I have.
Even though they make me feel useless and unwanted.
There are people that tell me different. 
They are the ones that you should hold on to.

Idk

Quotes

List of thing to do before I die

Go on my mission

Go to college

Get married

Have a family

Do some stupid stuff

Change the world

Learn new things

Make new friend

Travel the world

Get old

Give all my money away before I die

Lost

Song By: Senses Fail

Slow Dance

So how can we find ourselves?

Trapped in our own private hells

Where we just scream but no one can hear

X marks the spot where the dig begins

The treasure is found within

The broken hearts that are soaked with fear.

Thank You!

You abandoned me as a child,

You never gave me a chance.

You never loved me like a mother should have.

I spent every night, thinking of what I did wrong!

Thinking of things that I did too make you leave.

I have always blamed myself for your mistakes.

I thought I was a mistake, that I didn’t belong here.

Every time I looked in the mirror, I saw your reflection.

It was telling me that I will never be good enough.

I guess you were right.

I have been rejected, hurt and broken.

I became unfixable.

Until, they came.

They fixed me; they showed me what love was.

They made me feel like I was important.

Like, I could be cared for.

I also learned that your mistakes weren’t mine.

There was nothing I could have done to stop you.

I finally learned how to let go.

I learned what fogginess was.

Then I did one thing that I tough was impossible.

I forgave you, and I felt good.

So I am grateful for what you did.

And all is left to say now is  Thank you!

I'm Tired

I’m tired of being sad

I’m tired of yelling

I’m tired of crying.

I’m tired of pretending.

I’m tired of being angry.

I’m tired of being alone.

I’m tired of feeling crazy.

I’m tired of remembering.

I’m tired of not knowing.

I’m tired of missing people.

I’m tired of needing help.

I’m tired of not loving and not being loved.

I’m tired of being different.

I’m tired of feeling stuck.

I’m tired of feeling worthless.

I’m tired of feeling empty inside.

I’m tired of not being able to just let go.

I’m tired of wishing I could just start over.

I’m tired of dreaming for something better.

But most of all, I’m just tired of being tired.

Picture Quotes

I love picture quotes.. They bring me joy in life. I want to share some of that joy with you.. sorry not all of them have the the person who said that quote.
So here you go!

Death

Death makes things real, it makes you feel pain. Pain that you have never, felt before. It makes you realize that life ends. You can't stop death. Sometimes it comes out of nowhere it hits you so heard, that your own feet can't keep you up. Sometimes it makes you wonder. Why them and not me? How am I better than that person? Why do I deserve to live? But it won't answer you.
It wants you to be miserable. It wants you to cry yourself to sleep every night. It wants you to crumble to paces. It wants you to stay down forever. But you have to get back up. You can't have death controlling you. You have to look in to the future, and realize that it does gets better.
You cannot blame yourself. Death will make you feel like it was your fault. It will make you think, "what if I was there when it happened, maybe I could have stopped it," or "If I told her/him not to go out, maybe they still would be alive." NO STOP! It's not your fault, it never was.
It happens to everyone. You just have to be stronger than death. I will tell you this, it does get better. Life goes on. Sometimes it may not seem like it, but I promise you it does. Each day, it hurts just a little but less. Each night you’re tears dry just a little but faster.
The pain gets easier to deal with. It won't completely go away but it will get better. I know this for myself, because I lost someone close to me. It seems like my life was over, but I told myself that I can have this affect my life to much. So I got back up and I’m still going. It doesn't mean that I forgot about that person. No they will always be with me.

More qoutes

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

-Reinhold Niebuhr

A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.

-Oscar Wilde 

Do all you can to make your dreams come true.

-Joel Osteen

I made decisions that I regret, and I took them as learning experiences... I'm human, not perfect, like anybody else.

-Queen Latifah 

Life is the art of drawing without an eraser.

-John W. Gardner

You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.

-C. S. Lewis

We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.

-Eleanor Roosevelt

 

 

 

 

Fear

I sit here and my mind is blank…

What am I afraid off?

I guess

I am afraid of loss.

Pain

Broken people

I’m afraid of myself.

I’m afraid of change.

I’m afraid of spiders.

I’m afraid of snakes

I’m afraid of the unknown

I’m afraid of death

These are the things that I am afraid of. It’s not all of them, but I don’t have that much time to share all of the things I am afraid of. Maybe someday i will, but that’s enough for today.